After sharing Monday’s post, I worked up the nerve to go to the grocery store and actually use some of the WIC vouchers the girls and I were given. It was quite the learning experience. Again, my mom went with me, and we got such a helpful cashier who walked us through the whole process. And take my word for it, checking out with the vouchers WAS A PROCESS. I used three vouchers, so I had to do three separate transactions, plus an additional transaction for the items purchased that were not covered through WIC vouchers. There have been times when I’ve been in a checkout line behind someone using WIC, and wondered what took so long. Now I know!
It’s easy to compare my experience at the grocery store to where others are in their lives right now. For instance, I have a friend whose dream has been to live on a farm. She and her husband bought a little farmhouse last year, and have slowly been adding animals over the past several months. I have another friend whose family just moved into their newly built “farmhouse in the city,” as she calls it. (You can find her blog HERE.) It is so easy to compare my story to theirs and feel defeated, regretful, and just plain sad.
But then I think about the people God has brought into my life recently. I think about the sweet couple who, though I’ve only met them three times, offered to open up their home for me to store my belongings while the girls and I are with my parents. I think about people who have reached out to me who have gone through similar situations, and the wisdom and encouragement they’ve shared. I think about friends who have been incredibly supportive. I think about the counselor I’ve been seeing, who has been nothing short of a Godsend. I think about my sister and her husband, and the way that they’ve gone above and beyond in embracing my daughters. I think about my parents who are newly retired, and who I know never thought they’d share their retired days with their adult daughter and their grandchildren, day in and day out. And of course I think about my own daughters, who were prayed for for so long before they finally arrived. I think about how they’ve changed me. And I think about the amazing, supernatural peace and joy I have seen in them over the past several tumultuous months.
I see God’s fingerprints everywhere.
And I feel so, so thankful. Still regretful, and sometimes sad. But so thankful, and so hopeful.
I know this post is not necessarily related to infertility, but it could be. Because we do the same thing when we are going through infertility, don’t we? We see friends having babies, or pregnant moms walking the aisles at Target, or see gender reveals on Facebook, and we wonder when it will be our turn. I guess this is kind of like that.
So my prayer today is that we will ALL be renewed day by day! Because “our turn” is coming. In God’s time, and in His way. Let’s give our time to Him, because His ways, and His timing are so much better than ours!
“We do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day.” -2 Corinthians 4:16, ESV
“You, Eternal One, are my sustenance and my life-giving cup.
In that cup, You hold my future and my eternal riches.
My home is surrounded in beauty;
You have gifted me with abundance and a rich legacy.
I will bless the Eternal,
whose wise teaching orchestrates my days
and centers my mind at night.
He is ever present with me;
at all times He goes before me.
I will not live in fear or abandon my calling
because HE stands at my right hand.
This is a good life-
my heart is glad, my soul is full of joy,
and my body is at rest.
Who could want for more?
You will not abandon me to experience death and the grave
or leave me to rot alone.
Instead, You direct me on the path that leads to a beautiful life.
As I walk with You, the pleasures are never-ending,
and I know true joy and contentment.”
-Psalm 16:5-11, The Voice translation