I feel so grateful for the experience of being pregnant. I have truly loved it. And I am SO thankful that God designed it so that we have nine months to be pregnant and to prepare. That being said, the closer Bonnie’s due date gets, the more nervous I get, and the less prepared I feel.
Throughout the past 7+ months, I’ve been pretty good about focusing on the “right here.” I’ve enjoyed each moment and each experience. But now that we are getting closer to the end of the pregnancy, I’m 100% focused on the “when she gets here.” And as my focus moves more from pregnancy to what happens when Bonnie gets here, I’m feeling more and more panicked, unprepared, and overwhelmed.
Thoughts about what we are going to do after she arrives have completely invaded my mind.
Right now, Bonnie is happy and warm and fed and content… without me having to lift a finger. But in less than 10 weeks, that won’t be the case.
And I guess I’m just hoping that I’m ready, and prepared, and enough for Bonnie.
How far along? 31 weeks
Total weight gain? 14 pounds
Maternity clothes? Yes.
Stretch marks? Nothing new. Nothing on my tummy.
Sleep: SO MUCH better this week! And I feel so thankful for this, because I was beginning to wonder if I’d ever get to have a good night’s rest before Bonnie’s arrival. Apart from several bathroom visits each night, I’ve slept like a rock all week.
Best moment this week: Spending time with family over Easter weekend. The only problem with going home to visit is that part of me always wishes we could stay longer! (:
Miss anything? Tummy sleeping… Oh, I miss it!
Movement: She’s moving so much. Most of her movements aren’t as jabbing as they used to be. They feel more rolling than jabbing… if that makes any sense at all.
Food cravings: Nothing specific. But I am still loving my ice. (:
Anything making you feel queasy or sick: Nope… feeling great. I had a weird bout of nausea on Sunday morning, but it passed pretty quickly.
Gender: A girl!
Symptoms: Nothing new. Just a growing tummy and a really wiggly baby!
Belly button in or out? It’s in, but getting flatter all the time.
Wedding ring on or off? Off.
Happy or moody most of the time: So happy, but very aware that our lives are about to change completely.
Looking forward to: Meeting our little girl!
What’s Going on with Baby:
- She is about 3.3 pounds, and 18 inches long. Her weight will be double, or more, by the time she is born! Goodness gracious!
- She is now able to process information, track light, and perceive signals from all five senses.
And here are a couple more pictures from our Easter weekend with my family!
Changing the subject…
This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. And I know that women struggling with infertility are already painfully aware of their infertility… probably every day of every week. I’m spending extra time in prayer this week for all of you who read this blog and have not yet been able to conceive… praying for strength for you, and peace, and faith that God will fulfill His promises, and BABIES!