Earlier this week I mentioned how nervous I’m getting about Bonnie’s arrival… nervous about how our lives will change once she gets here, about what kind of mother I am going to be, about breastfeeding. But more immediate than those fears are my fears about the actual birth process. No matter how many books I read, birth stories I read, or videos I watch, I just have NO IDEA what to expect.
And the unknown is always a bit scary.
But what does the Bible say about fear?
Perfect love expels fear. (1 John 4:18)
And what does the Bible say about worry?
Do not be anxious about anything. Instead, PRAY. Pray about everything. God longs to hear your requests, so talk to God about your needs and be thankful for what has come. And know that the peace of God (a peace that is beyond all human understanding) will stand watch over your hearts and minds. (Philippians 4:6-7)
With only 8 weeks left until Bonnie’s due date, I’ve started praying very specifically about the labor and delivery process. And I’m ashamed it has taken me this long to really get serious about praying about it! I truly believe in the power of prayer, and I’d be honored if you all would pray these thing along with me when Bonnie and I cross your mind:
Here is what we are praying for Bonnie’s delivery:
1) That she comes on her own.
I know that the doctor will let me go a bit past the due date before inducing, but I also know there will come a point that I will have to be induced if she does not come on her own. I am hoping for an unmedicated delivery, and although I am not incredibly legalistic about this, I would really like not to have pitocin.
2) That she comes on or before her due date.
They say many first time moms go past their due dates, but they also say that women with PCOS often delivery babies early. I’m hoping this means Bonnie will find a happy medium. Of course I want her to be full-term before she decides to come, but I REALLY do not want her to be late. Right around her due date, Andrew has three weeks off from school. If Bonnie is a week or two late, it would really cut into the time Andrew is able to spend at home with us before returning to school full-time. I want him to have a full three weeks to get to know her and to adjust, without school hanging over his head. And selfishly, I know I could use his help during that time too!
3) That our testimony to the nurses at the hospital will be glorifying to God.
I’m praying now that my attitude, and Andrew’s, will be Christlike during our entire stay at the hospital: from the moment we arrive to the moment we leave. I am working on a playlist of hymns and sacred songs that we may play while I am in the delivery room. And I am also working on scripture cards for Andrew to read to me during labor. I am praying that the people entering our room will sense the presence of God in a mighty way. And I’m praying that I will sense His presence and peace, even in the midst of discomfort and pain.
4) That I would not be overcome by fear.
I know that fear is not of God, and I know that my body was awesomely created to be able to give birth. So I pray that fear would be far, far away from me. And Andrew… because I think he will be pretty nervous when the time comes!
5) That both Bonnie and I will be happy and safe.