We spent all of last week in full-fledged survival mode.
I have never been so discouraged in motherhood as I have been over the past week. Our week started off with Bonnie having a fever and runny nose, and the three of us girls passing around whatever it was she had. Then we found out that our plans for Bonnie’s Mothers’ Day Out program had fallen through. She took the very last open spot, but since she was only registered as part-time, we would have to either switch to full-time, or give her spot away if another child wanted to register full-time. The director said once the school year starts, that scenario rarely happens. But it happened to us! Our sign that it just was not meant to be, I suppose.
The biggest source of my discouragement these past seven days has been feeding Audrey. My milk supply seems to be dwindling, and no matter how much I nurse, or pump, or eat foods that should increase milk production, or guzzle water, or drink Mothers’ Milk tea, or take Fenugreek, or use Basil essential oil, I cannot keep up with her. She becomes frustrated at each nursing session, and is constantly unsatisfied.
After depleting my frozen milk supply over the weekend, the reality of needing to supplement with formula is setting in. And I feel such a profound sense of loss, and failure and guilt. But as my own mother reminded me, it isn’t about how I feel. It is about getting Audrey fed… Somehow, some way. So I am trying to cut myself a little slack, roll with the punches, and just get Audrey fed somehow. Maybe I will be able to build my milk supply back up. Maybe not. But Audrey has to eat either way.
And speaking of eating, here is our dinner menu for the week:
Monday: Pizza… Not a great way to start out the week, I know. But it is Labor Day and we will be at my parents’ house, and dinner will be served after a long, hot day at the zoo. Remember the 80/20 rule I mentioned last week? It is for days like this!
Tuesday: Kale veggie burgers, baked sweet potatoes, summer salad
Wednesday: Salmon in the cast iron skillet (YAY!) with brussel sprouts and sweet potatoes
Thursday: Spaghetti (with organic ground beef and zucchini noodles) with spinach salad
Friday: Mexican quinoa bowl with chicken (similar to this recipe)
Saturday: Homemade pizza. Grain free crust, topped with olive oil instead of marinara, goat cheese instead of mozzarella, spinach, and onion
Meal prep for the week included:
Hard-boiling 7 eggs (7 is random, I know.)
Baking a batch of these gluten free blueberry muffins
Roasting chickpeas (find out how here.)
Whipping up a batch of lactation bites
It doesn’t get much easier than that!
Tonight I will go ahead and bake a batch of sweet potatoes for us to have for lunches, and with Tuesday night’s dinner.
I would love to hear your meal plans for the week, or your meal prep ideas!