These are the thoughts I shared in this week’s newsletter, and I feel compelled to share them here as well. They stem from last week’s sermon at our church, and are SO timely for anyone struggling with infertility… particularly in light of this weekend being Mothers’ Day.
Why do you say, ‘My path is hidden from the Eternal; He has lost all interest in my cause?’
Don’t you know? Haven’t you heard? The Creator of this world never gets tired or weary. His wisdom is beyond understanding.
I remember last Mothers’ Day like it was yesterday. My husband and I
were spending the weekend in his hometown, and went to church that Sunday with his family. I’d dreaded going, and had it just been the two of us, we probably would have stayed home from church that day.
We were in the middle of a two-week wait after an IUI. I remember feeling SOOOO hopeful, but also tired: Tired of not being pregnant, tired of the waiting, tired of doctors’ appointments, tired of pills that did not do what doctors were so sure they would. And I was tired of pretending not to be tired.
Andrew’s family did not know what we were going through, so Sunday morning at church, I felt especially alone. And by the end of the weekend I was spent emotionally. In light of it having been Mothers’ Day weekend, my focus was on the thing that had become the giant in my life: Infertility.
In 1 Samuel 17, David was preparing to fight the giant Goliath. Goliath was over nine feet tall, and the Bible describes him as “a fearsome sight.” (1 Samuel 17:7) Amazingly, throughout the chapter, David had NINE thoughts directed toward God, and TWO thoughts directed toward the giant… Only two! In the face of His giant, with armies surrounding him, David’s focus was still on GOD.
God promises to strengthen those wait on Him. (Isaiah 40:29-30) In this context, “to wait” means “to have CONFIDENT EXPECTATION.” Other translations say He strengthens those who hope in Him, or who trust in Him. But “wait on Him” is my favorite… because infertility involves lots of waiting…. LOTS of confident expectation.
Our God is bigger than our giants; He is bigger than our circumstances. He has measured out all the earth’s water in the palm of a cupped hand. He has counted the grains of dirt on this earth, and knows the weight of each mountain. He can pick up entire islands as if they are specks of sand. He stretched out the skies like curtains and spread them above our heads as a tent. He placed each star in the sky, and each one shines in its place. Because He said it should be so. (Isaiah 40:12-15,22,26)
God is bigger. He is bigger than any giant we will ever face…. infertility included.
Even on Mothers’ Day.
God strengthens the weary
and gives vitality to those worn down by age and care.
Young people will get tired;
strapping young men will stumble and fall.
But those who wait on the Eternal One will regain their strength.
They will soar on wings as eagles.
They will runnever winded, never weary.
They will walknever tired, never faint.