If we are being perfectly honest here (and that is one of my goals here on the blog), I am posting this recipe mostly as a way to stall for some time. Yes, the recipe is delicious. It is easy, tasty, and functional (you will see what I mean by that a little further down the page). But mainly, I just need some time to mull over some things.
Well, I am thrilled that we are finally pregnant. Going through fertility treatments has been the hardest thing I’ve done in my life so far. I am thrilled that, at the end of my first trimester, I will be able to quit putting sticky patches on my stomach, and using suppositories two times a day. Andrew will be able to stop giving me the progesterone shots that leave me with a sore, lumpy, and swollen back side. I will eventually start gaining weight because I am pregnant… NOT because I am going through months of IVF treatment.
Even though I am thrilled for Andrew and myself, my hear still hurts for the precious friends I’ve made who are still waiting, praying, crying, fighting, and hoping to become mothers. Because I don’t want to push any of you away by sharing a pregnancy story, I’ve really had to consider what our pregnancy means for this blog.
How much should I write about and document our pregnancy? Should I quit blogging here, and begin another blog that follows our
pregnancy, as not to cause anyone pain… more pain than their struggle with infertility has already caused them? I know I want to document our pregnancy and our growing family somewhere, but is this blog the best place to do that? I just don’t know.
I’ve thought about the idea of continuing to blog here, but
only about PCOS, infertility, and fertility treatments. That doesn’t feel quite right either. The original intent of this blog was NOT simply to discuss and explore those topics. This blog was meant to be a journal, a keepsake, of our family’s life together.
I was terrified to write my first post about infertility, and waited many months to even get up the courage to write it. Gradually, as fertility treatments took over more and more of our lives, they also took over more and more of this blog. And I’m glad they did. As difficult as they’ve been, I
want to remember them, and I want other women to be able to use this blog as a resource for HOPE.
All of that being said, I am still at an impasse. I love my little blog, and I love the girls who read it. I want to respect their hearts and their struggles, and I certainly do not want to cause more heartache in any way.
While I battle all those thoughts, let’s take a look at the afore mentioned recipe, shall we?!
I mentioned that these protein balls are functional, and I also mentioned that this blog is honest. So here’s a little TMI: These protein balls are really great for helping relieve constipation. And that is all thanks to one secret ingredient… PRUNES!
I’ve been eating prunes every day since I started progesterone injections, since I know they are the constipation culprit. I really do think they help, but they don’t taste all that great by themselves. I really wanted an easy way to spice them up and make them a little less prune-like.
A couple notes about this recipe:
These are a GREAT snack for those of us with PCOS. They are packed full of protein, and the only sugar they contain is the natural sugar from the prunes, and the bit of sugar from the extra-dark chocolate.
If you don’t have flaxseed oil, just use a bit of extra peanut butter. I’ve tried both ways, and both are good.
Since this recipe was total trial and error, the actual measurements are only ballparks, so if you aren’t pleased with the consistency or flavor, just try tossing in a little more of this or that. You can’t mess them up! Just play around with them a bit until they are exactly how YOU like them! For instance, I actually used EXTRA prunes one go around.
If you don’t have time to let these chill for an hour before you form them into balls, it’s no big deal. They just might be a little messier to work with!
I made a double batch of these, because they freeze really well. You can eat them straight from the freezer, but they are also good at room temp. I freeze them because Andrew packs them in his lunch box, so by the time he actually eats them, they are no longer frozen. But he actually prefers them frozen. One of the first things he does when he gets home from school in the evenings is grab a protein ball or two while he waits for dinner! He is the reason I call these “Secret Ingredient” protein balls… I knew if he knew they had prunes in them he might not eat them!
And if you’ve ever wondered what the dogs do while I’m in the kitchen (which I’m sure you haven’t, but I will share anyway…)
They battle with soup cans!