During this time when there is so much hurt and brokenness around the world, in our country, and in places that hit so close to home for so many, God do so much mending of my heart.
He has replaced my loneliness with community, and isolation with connection. He has used others to show me His goodness in ways that I have never before experienced. He has surrounded me with women who love and serve Him, and whose lives are shaped by their relationships with Christ.
I do not know how long it has been since I’ve had these kinds of relationships in my life… Junior year of college, I think.
I’ve known they were missing, but I don’t think I realized the depth or the consequences of what I was missing out on.
We spend Saturday evening at a special 2-year-old’s birthday party. His parents have been such blessings in mine and Andrew’s lives, and I left that evening feeling renewed and filled up.
And the very next morning I got to wake up and go to the sweetest church. I got to experience God amidst my very own community of believers, a community I have missed for so many years, without even fully realizing it. A community of crying babies, nursing babies, chattering toddlers, harried mommas, bustling teenagers, and the supernatural peace of the Holy Spirit. I sensed it the moment we walked through the doors our first time there. And God has been softening and opening my heart ever since. To Him, and to others.
And on top of that, I am in baby heaven these days. Audrey is so calm, and so sweet, and so squishy, and between her and Bonnie, I am just so in love!