Without going into details about the specifics of current circumstances, I’d like to share an excerpt from an old blog post. It reflects a bit of what my heart is feeling again today, and makes me wonder when I’m going to learn to stop obsessing so greatly over my plans, my timelines, my agendas, and start putting my plans in the hands of the Almighty.
“Oh Martha, Martha, you are so anxious and concerned about a million details, but really, only one thing matters…”
-Luke 10:41,42 The Voice translation
…If God has taught me anything over the past four years, (and He’s taught me a lot) it has been that our plans are so fickle, especially when we are open to His movement in our lives. When we open our hearts to Christ, we open our lives to the unexpected. That’s the hard part of faith: relinquishing your plans and your will to that of Christ, and trusting that His ways are greater.
My timeline, and my entire agenda for my whole life, have not come to pass as I had planned. Instead, I’ve had to surrender my ideas of the way I want things to be. I have to surrender them again and again and again, day after day. Because, day after day, my flesh gets in the way, and I try to reclaim my future. I worry over it, plan for it, and then worry some more, before remembering the One I serve, and the One I profess to trust with my whole life.
God is constantly reminding me that until my plans and my heart are wholly surrendered to Him, my planning is in vain.
I can do, and do, and do. I can plan, and plan, and plan. And nothing will ever be accomplished if my focus and my heart are not staked in HIM alone.
True dependence is not simply asking Me to bless what you have decided to do. It is coming to Me with an open mind and heart, inviting Me to plant My desires within you. I may infuse within you a dream that seems far beyond your reach. You know that in yourself you cannot achieve such a goal. Thus begins your journey of profound reliance on Me. It is a faith-walk, taken one step at a time…
Sarah Young, Jesus Calling